You Don't Always Get What You Want

At some point in our lives we learn the, "you don't always get what you want" lesson, and not only do we not always get what we want, but we don't always get it when we want it. So if we know we can't always get what we want, and can't always get it when we want it, why is it so hard to accept sometimes? I guess it's just the "natural man" in us. I'd be lying if I said that I never wanted anything. As of right now there are things I want and that I want now, but life doesn't always go how we want it and at some point we have to accept that. I wanted to try and write down the things that I have learned, or that I am in the process of learning, that have helped me deal with this part of life. As you read these you'll notice I have many imperfections, but I guess we all do right?


1. Be grateful. Sometimes I let myself get so caught up in the things that I want that I lose sight of what I already have. This is sad because I truly have so much. One thing that has helped me, is to make a list in my head of things I am grateful for. I do this in my head because a lot of times it's when I'm praying.

2. Be Happy. Sometimes it can be hard to stay happy when life doesn't go the way you planned, and sometimes you have to "fake it tell you make it". I do believe that positive thoughts can change the way you feel about the situations that life deals you. I'm not perfect at this. I try hard to do it and sometimes I fail at it, but I do my best. Life is meant to be enjoyable and if we don't take time to enjoy it we will look back with great sadness when we realize what we've missed.

3. Be patient. My biggest weakness right here! I don't know about you, but I'm not the most patient person in the world to say the least :) When I want something I usually want it now. I know I have a lot of room for improvement in this area because my Heavenly Father tests me on it quite frequently. When I'm struggling with patience I just remind myself that if it's supposed to happen it will, and then of course I find something to distract me.

4. You can't always be in control.  In this world some of us are control freaks and I happen to be one of them. To not have control is not only terrifying to me, but it stresses me out beyond belief. As life goes on I'm learning that I have less and less control over things. My husband has comforted me many times by reminding me to take control of  the things I can control and hand the rest over to the Lord.

 

 

5. You aren't going to be perfect. We all know what we "should" do in times of trials, but we are human, and we aren't perfect. We have to accept that when life doesn't go our way we sometimes make bad decisions. We may become impatient, unhappy, or ungrateful. We may even start to lose faith. One thing I've learned is that when we are going through a trial often times we go through the grieving process as well (or at least I do). I deny what is happening or how I feel. I become angry. I become sad. And then at some point I learn to accept. I have found the best thing to do when you're are having a hard time is to surround yourself with good people that truly care about you, that will love you through the good and the bad. Thank your Heavenly Father for what he has given you and let him know that you need him. These things can help us when life doesn't go our way, or when we don't get what we want, when we want it.  So the question is...what will you do when life doesn't go your way?

 



A "Thank You" To The Wonderful People In My Life

First of all I need to thank my Husband for putting up with me on my graduation day. I was stressed... and that should really be no surprise to those of you that know me. I was worried about what I was going to wear underneath my gown, what time I needed to be there, and how I was supposed to know where to go, where to sit, and what to do. It all worked out in the end!

I am so glad I chose to walk because it gave me closure. It sounds weird but I finished my classes about three weeks ago and took my boards on Monday (I passed yay), but it still didn't feel real. It didn't feel like I was done. I'm sure all of you that have gone to school for a good amount of time have felt this at some point. You almost don't know what to do with yourself  when you don't have any homework or tests to worry about.  Walking helped me bring this part of school to an end. I enjoyed talking to my classmates and figuring out what was next for them. I was also excited to find out that there will be twelve other people with me in the mammography program next year (the most applicants they've had in a long time. I'm super excited to start that program and to finish the last year of my formal education.

During graduation I was having a lot of mixed emotions but the number one emotion I felt was gratitude. I am so lucky to have such amazing people in my life. I'll first start with my husband. Not only did he believe in me ALWAYS he had to put up with my craziness ( I always get so stressed and emotional when I am in school). He helped me stay motivated and would always remind me of what was most important. The biggest thing he did for me though was just love me! I'm so blessed to have such an amazing and supportive husband that helps me become a better person. Next is my parents. Not only did they teach me the importance of education they helped me in achieving that dream. They've always loved me unconditionally, and they have always wanted the best for me. I'm also very thankful for my extended family on mine and Jesse's side. I have the best in-laws and the best family ever. Everyone was always interested in what I was up to and how school was going.  I'm also grateful for such wonderful friends. They too have always been there for me. Now I have to give thanks to my wonderful teachers. there are a handful of teachers that really helped me get through my program in many different ways. These teachers not only taught me the things that I need to know, but I know that they really cared. They wanted us to succeed and they would do anything to help us do that. I can't mention everyone by name because there is just too many, but I just want you all to know that I love you and I couldn't have done it without you!

Now what's next...? As most of you know I will be dong the Mammography program starting in the Fall. I currently have two jobs as an x-ray tech and can't wait to better my skills and continue learning. I'm really excited to see what's next for Jess and I!!

Why I'm Choosing To Walk

     When my teachers told me about graduation the first thing that came to my mind is why walk for an associates degree? Not only do I already have one, but wouldn't it be better to walk with a bachelors? Wouldn't it be more of an accomplishment to be able to say I have my bachelors? Most people probably feel the same way as I do. The problem with that way of thinking is we forget how hard someone might have worked to get that associates degree. Some have worked just as hard and sacrificed just as much.  This is the reason I'm walking. Although I'm not done in my journey through school, I feel that this goal to complete the Radiology Program was one of the hardest to reach...but guess what I did it!

     When I first got into the program I had NO clue how hard it was going to be to finish it. I figured I got through the hardest part already (getting in). Once I started I realized how hard it would be. I would spend 3 days (8 hours each day) a week for 2 years doing clinicals. I would study more then I ever wanted to and take some of the hardest tests I had ever taken. I would stress and worry about my grades. I would fear that I wouldn't ever pick it up. I learned things about me I didn't want to admit, like how I was slower on picking up on the clinical side of school. I learned about my strengths and my weaknesses. I learned how to rely on the Lord and that if no one else had faith in me that he did. Without him and my dear husband Jesse I could have never gotten through the program. Every person has different struggles in life and this was one of the biggest for me. So yes I'm going to walk for it, because it may just seem like an associates degree, but to me it is something much more!

Time Is Flying

I can't believe that it was almost two years ago since I started the Radiology Program and now I'm going to be done in little less then seven weeks. It's been one of the hardest things I've ever done yet the most rewarding. One thing I really have found out about myself is how much I really do love people. It's the patients that I see everyday that make it worth it along with great coworkers (or should I say teachers). I went and shadowed in Mammography a few weeks ago and pretty much loved it (you would hope I would since I already applied to the program ha-ha). It will be a job that will mean a lot to me with Jesses mom having the BRCA and all three of his sisters testing positive for it as well.

With school coming to an end I've been thinking about jobs. The good news is I still work at AFCU and I just got hired on at Wee-Care Pediatrics. It will be exciting to work with kids again, sometimes I really miss the daycare. Another thing I have to look forward to is my hospital did say they would hire me and I can't wait to work there, the only thing holding me back is getting used to surgery and I've been becoming more and more comfortable with it so hopefully soon :)

Jesse has been doing some airbrush painting again and I still am amazed at how talented he is. Another thing he has kept busy with is remodeling our house. I can't believe its been 2 years since we first moved in, but our house is looking great I will have to post pictures when we are done with the kitchen. All we have left is to tile the floor and back splash and finish staining the cabinets.

The pups are still my kiddos that I Love so much. I'm so glad we got prim so chance could have some company while we are gone. It's crazy how dogs can have such different personalities, and I love them both so much in their own little ways.

Well there is a little update on our life right now :) See Ya Soon!

Things Passed & Things to Come

This past year has been good. Jesse and I have done a lot with the house, school, jobs, and family. Now we are ready to move on and get more accomplished. I will be finishing the Radiology Program this April and will be applying to the Mammography program  that will start next fall. In the meantime I will enjoy my time at America First where I've made some life long friends. Jesse will continue to work at Cerrowire and get further along in his apprenticeship. Some of our other 2014 goals are to pay off debt, finish our house renovations, live a healthier life, and grow closer to the Lord.  Here are some fun pictures from the last year. Love you all and wishing we all have a great 2014!!!